That quote sums up how I've been feeling lately, and not just because we had to put Brandy down. I have been feeling like this for awhile. I'm not sad, but I'm not happy either. But, I'm fine. This is confusing. I can't sleep either. I have to work 9 hours and I can't get to sleep. Something really random happened though. I was laying in bed, trying to sleep, when all of a sudden I got really upset. About nothing. I just wanted to cry, and I've been feeling that way for the past few days. Sometimes I wish I could just let everything out. I feel like I have so much bottled up inside of me, but I can't let it out. No matter what I do. I feel like I would feel maybe a little bit better if I just cried, but I can't. Every time I come close to crying, it's like something inside me just stops it from happening. Even if I'm alone. I hate crying in front of people, so I don't cry on purpose when I'm around people. But you know, every time I cry, a small part of me feels..ashamed? Embarrassed? I'm not really sure, but maybe that's why I can't cry anymore. I never cry, ever. It's stupid because the only time I feel like I could cry is when I'm in front of people, but then I'm like "I'll just hold it in until I get home and alone in my room" and then by the time that happens, I can't cry anymore.
Oh well, I'm gonna try to get some sleep. I just wanted to get some things off my chest. I'll write again sometime! Bye bye! :3
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